31 December 2007

wont promise anything.....

OMG..i don’t want to be heartless…please don’t
Out of blue I feel that am heartless and am so scare and worries about this. I’m not intended to be so and be harm to my self. This birthday celebration will be the weird thing I guess and it is so much put me in lot of questions about why this world is so cool to those who are looking or a pureness among other humans? My feeling is being hurted and I do feel disappointed .. The blue feelin seems to knock my purity toward lover thing. I don’t want to be a phoenix (if u have wathced X-Men, then u know what i mean here, ;D). I do upset with some friends here, not to mention involving those close friends... Well, what the fuck coz I don’t live with their money. Be what I am.. regardless if it causes me to be inhuman well, so sorry for that. Will be cool again I guess once be able to love my self then I will try to spred the love to all over the world. To all friends who wished me a birthday and New year wish, I appreciate that and those who are not, well, not my fucking business and in fact not to blame me if i cant remember it coz the date has no siginificant at all compared to mine.hahahaha... “evil sigh”

the phoniex of Me

My december

My 31….

Hi fellas, here we are. Meeting here again with my new updates conversely it may sound dim and dry. Well, frst of all, I would like to say, Happy birthday to my self, and yes, every 31st December, the price of my physical n mind will be increased and that is the rule of universe. Big number bring big responsibilities on your shoulder. Up to you to put them in a balance either on ur right or left shoulder based on your own expedient. Right or left? Well, if u put ‘em on your right then you will do it right away and vice versa. All of these are done based on your life menu, fellas. Thanks for those who wished me and I do be glad about the wishes friends and really I am. Well it would sound exquisite if the wish comes directly from those who u love and adore. Ok. Too much of hoping will kill u then but when you are in this stage of searching and accepting then you are putting ur heart at a risk either u will be fine all the way or u r getting heartless due to obnoxious and unpleasant journey that u have encountered with. Too much craps here so I guess I go to the some “down to earth issues”.

I have no ideas, today I keen to be reserve and restful even during my Birthday. I declined to celebrate New year at Robert’s house, I declined going out to KL to meet Odde and Christy, no mood to do this and to do that. Gosh, today I was a bit offensive. Thanks for Daus (btw, happy besday to u my neighbour as he was born on 30 dec 82! he is one of my Dec mate a.k.a neigbhour) coz tries to cheer me up and ur efforts to do so are granted. For what reason? Well, someone mirrored me in a pessimistic and off-putting way! That is the reason. Do I look such fucking whore?

This is my today horoscopes:-

If you start off this day feeling a bit depressed, try to get outside as soon as you can for a brief stroll. No matter what the weather is like, a big dose of fresh air will get you back on track. A blue mood is nothing to worry about -- it could just be your mind telling you to slow down a bit and ponder some new emotions that your heart is feeling. Taking a short walk will give you the time you need to reset your brain and start feeling like yourself again.

~nah i guess it is just a coincidence to me as i am not that rule out this kind of thing.

Today, I spent my time to watch movies, I bought a cake for myself and with a bottle of Marinda Strawberry but i wont take some snaps for them.

Well, the last day I celebrated new year in KL was end of 2002. That was the last day I throw my excitement to give an affectionate welcome to the 2003. New year? What does it mean to you? Well, for me it is a year to re-think again what you have done and how do u spend your life time nicely? I read a book about gender it tells us that after 30 year old, men will take many times to re-think and regret the things they have not done in past rather than think what should they do in future or at least at this time of speaking as the age is moving forward. This could be due to metapause but for women it will be called as menopause. In the stage of metapause or midlife crisis, the noteworthy personal changeover men in their forties experiences can have both negative and positive consequences- depression, suicide, and alcohol problems often become manifest at this time. The books tell us that families are at higher risk for divorce. On the positive side, a man’s heightened sense of self during midlife can be useful for reintegration of the masculine and feminine traits which our culture mandates as being separate for most of a man’s life. Ok, if you get dizzy coz of this fact let picture it like this, in this stage where we can see men become more nurturant and women more independent as a women can standing apart from her husband and this may relieve the husband from his burden of responsibilities he feels he has carried for the family. Hence the wife who grows in assertiveness and independent provides the best sources of support to her husband at this stage. This is a fact. Wont describe this more. Not in the mood of sharing the ideas and fact now coz I still feel the offensiveness that I have here.

By the way, I guess I have to stop here but it is just for a while fellas. To all my silent readers, I wish you all have a nice day ahead people and happy new year. New year comes but will it brings new hopes to us? As usual, I wish you all, all the best to seek your needs and all of them are out there. The truth is out there ( quoted from X-Files).. and am listening the song 'best in me' by Blue...nice wording as we are in the line to look the past which enable us to create the more strong foundation to create the future..

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Josh.

24 December 2007

Christmas Eve....

It is Monday…Well, the time is moving so fast and you can feel the beat when it comes to the end of the year. Gosh, another year is waiting to be born. Here it goes, the cycle of life is doing its great job in order to make sure the universe is giving the equal opportunity to all creatures under the sun.

What did I up to lately? Ok, just have a short recap for a while..shall we?
Monday – Friday, I was a bit bz with something and now I start to plan what should I do for next year. So by the end of December then I just need to follow the plan. At this time of speaking, everyone is busy with his/ her planning. So this shows that you are be the flow than follow the floor. I guess this can be suit to refer the state of affair that am talking about- just make be the flow if you want to make ur plan works accordingly to ur needs and longing.

On Friday, I wet out with a friend of mine to enjoy the nocturnal of us at a cinema and it was not last there as we were passing by one of happening clubs someway at KL-Sigh!!!~. The vibes were cool even though I felt a bit bumpy because am still not really familiar with the place. Thanks to Amier for the entertainment buzz. Really appreciate that night. Oh ya, The movies I watched recently are “I am the legend”- I like the touching part where it shows that Dr. Nivel lost his dog- Sammantha, and the another movie is “National Treasures”- I love the relic hunting part! Well, I love these movies. Am waiting forhaunted movies now..anyone?Throw me your holla if you are intrested too.

On Sunday, I went to Criz place and supposed to be at a gym but hell no but we had another backup plan;-

Guess what I am suffering the muscle strain due to badly chosen a.k.a inappropriate sleeping positions. Should u not to think that I was doing some “doggie” things which cause the pain. I cant do my own massage and in fact I don’t dare to have a massage which is served by those who are not professional because it wont fix the problems at all rather than it lead u the journey of the hell. OMG it is so fucking excruciating as I by a hair's breadth cant wear my boxer or short! Even I can take a fastidious sleep due to the twinge on my left region lumbar. Today I cant do some workout activities especially push up. Makin gemuk le kalo macam ne.

Today is Christmas Eve. I have just made a call to my Family. I am receving some sms from friends for this celebration and I give colossal thanks to all of you, friends. I appreciate it very very much. Last year I didn’t go back for Xmas but then I went back during Gawai celebration. Tomorrow I will be at PD as planned. I might be there for couple of nights but I bet it won’t be that long coz a good buddy of mine is coming up with his kids and the wife. Well, to those who are out there, Merry Xmas and Happy New year. I know that my writing seems to be dry but I have no ideas I lost my mood and exhilaration of blogging.Those words and morphemes are embedded adequately in the brain and mind but then I have no ideas how to make them sound vivacious and bubbly as well as to make it sounds more authenticity and luminosity which is by mean to gratify your reading criteria at the end it will motivate you to read it more and more :D

Okies then, I guess I have to stop by now. I’ll try my best to update the blog once I get my mood back. Huh, am not ready to be easily affected by mood. Don’t call this as one of “middle age crisis” symptoms coz am not in such ring tho! Till then, Wishing all of you with merry xmas and Happy new year. Good day fellas and be nice to everyone. May this end of year will give u strenght to get a new kick start to find your ways and destiny namely it love, joy, happines, career and health. Am speading my love to all of humankind as i prommise you all no harmness."wink".

Cheers and regards
X0x0x0x0x0 Josh

~ no wonder i was not in the pool because i was doing something ;p~

Brown Eyes - Destinys Child

I have this song but Ed remainds me with this song.Literaly, the song makes u to remember the moments u fall in love with someone. It is so beautiful to be heard. Btw, i like the wordings. They are all in pink.Thanks to Ed Gedix for the reminding..I owe u that.Thanks

13 December 2007

Humid all day long

Today is quite blue to me because I have noting to do. I supposed to be at KL to settle down something before I meet up with Maria this coming Friday. This weekend will be a bit pack to me (Friday – Saturday). As planed I will stay overnight at Chris’ consign so easy for me to go to TS at the early morning with Odee. Hope this will be as has been planned. Need to settle something before Xmas comes to knock the year. Yeah, people all around Malaysia are celebrating the sales here and there. Such an electrifying and stirring yet uproarious scene. Ok, today I wished a friend of mine with “a happy besday greeting” but then I got negative feedback so I feel a bit scratchy because I can feel that the person don’t need me to be his friend. Then, noting much I can do. Sometimes, you will feel so disconcert when people try to avoid from making friendship with you. It can be he or she hates you just because something which sounds stupid. Or you are not that ‘somebody” to such person. Come on, I hardly to reject people to be my buddies or friends. For me, if she or he comes from virtual or real world, I will never ever treat them poles apart if they are so “ngam” or click to me! I treat them as equal as I can. But I cant understand why people so choosy to make friend? Differentiate them from which group they are coming from either from real world of virtual. Sometime, people hardly to be friend with their exs? Am not being judgmental here. For me, friendship remains more. Just attach importance to the moments we have, namely it is love, friendship and joy. Well, if people treated me bad, so I try to follow the flow of their games. Not to say that I am too good but then what my zodiac tells can be almost true;-

Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitivein everything. Active in games and interactions.Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential inorganizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,yet complicated to know. Easily influenced bykindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves tojoke. Good debating skills. Has that someonealways on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friend.

Starting from now on, I will follow the flow of people. Be there done that. I like the song background for this blog. It makes me cool and I do appreciate more what I have written here, especially while listening to the song. It makes me more down to earth! hehe. All of them are my unspoken voices which I hardly to express in face to face context. I am so sorry for that. So sorry for the words i have not said while in the reality appreance..Feeling that I am missing someone but then I still try to put it in a lower tone.I still believe in love friendship and all goods of human kind even sometime it hurts me cos i need to accpet it! Am just a human, i have nothing except my feeling and my family, i can be someone to some of friends yet am not a somebody! ~listening to kenangan terindah with a guitar ~

xoxoxoxox, Josh

11 December 2007

Love tips

Dudes and Jass...i have this from one of my friends and i post it here for us to realize how far is our preciption and mind's eye toward the standard that we have made when the love thing comes to surface and compare it to the reality of love....the story goes like this.......

Anda mengetahui yang anda merindui seseorang apabila jantung anda berdeguppantas ketika teringatkan dia. Dan walaupun sekadar "Hai" daripada diamencukupi sebagai penenang.

Ulasan: anda mungkin menaruh hati kepadanya, cuma anda tidak menyedarinya ataupun anda tidak mahu menerimanya sebagai kenyataan.Jangan jadi terlalu baik, saya akan merindui kamu. Jangan terlalu mengambilberat, saya mungkin menyukai kamu. Jangan jadi terlalu 'sweet', saya mungkin jatuh hati kepada kamu. Amat sukar untuk saya menyayangi kamu jikakamu tidak mahu membalasnya.

Ulasan: seseorang yang membuat kamu jatuh hati kepadanya sebenarnya menyayangi kamu lebih daripada kamu menyayangi dia.J ika seseorang hadir dalam hidup kamu dan menjadi sebahagian daripada kamu,tetapi atas sebab tertentu dia terpaksa pergi, jangan terlalu sedih.. kenyataan itu dan sekurang2nya dia pernah membahagiakan kamu.

Ulasan: Masa akan menentukan segalanya, jika dia ditakdirkan bersama anda, dia akan kembali.Jangan melarikan diri dari 'cinta' apabila ia berada di hadapan kamu. Jangan melarikan diri daripadanya kerana suatu hari nanti, kamu pasti akan teringatkannya kembali dan menyesali perbuatan kamu itu.

Ulasan: hargai orang yang menyayangi kamu, bukan mudah untuk mencari orangyang menyayangi kita, yang paling berharga ialah hati yang ikhlas.Penyesalan terbesar dalam hidup ialah risiko yang kita tidak ambil. Jika anda merasakan sesuatu itu akan membuatkan anda bahagia, maka teruskan. Ingatlah bahawa kita akan melalui semua ini hanya sekali, mungkin tiada lagi peluang kedua.

Ulasan: Masa tidak menunggu kita. Jika anda rasakan anda telah bertemu dengan orang yang sesuai, maka hargailah dia, jangan biarkan dia berlalu begitu sahaja. Jangan bertangguh kerana takut. Cubalah dahulu atau anda akan menyesal kerana membiarkan ia berlalu begitu sahaja. Tiada sesiapapun yang tahu apakah yang membuatkan anda benar2 bahagia.

Ada 2 titis air mata mengalir di sebuah sungai. Satu titis air mata tu menyapa air mata yang satu lagi, "Saya air mata seorang gadis yang menyayangi seorang lelaki tetapi telah kehilangannya. Siapa kamu pula?".Jawab titis air mata kedua tu, "Saya air mata seorang lelaki yang menyesalmembiarkan seorang gadis yang menyayangi saya berlalu begitu sahaja."Ulasan: Tiada sesiapapun yang simpati kepada orang yang sengaja membiarkanpeluang pergi begitu sahaja tanpa berusaha untuk mendapatkannya ataumempertahankannya. Kita selalunya tidak menghargai seseorang yang hampir atau menyayangi kita sehingga dia pergi meninggalkan kita; kemudian kita akan sedih dan menyesal mengingatkannya.Terdapat banyak bebintang di langit tetapi hanya satu sahaja yang begitu menyerlah sehingga dapat menarik perhatian anda. Dari kalangan yang anda pilih untuk abaikan ialah sebutir bintang yang sanggup menyinari anda walau di mana sahaja anda berada.

Ulasan:Bahagian 1: orang yang bersama anda ketika ini mungkin bukanlah orang yang benar2 anda sayangi.Bahagian 2: terdapat orang yang tahu dia tidak dapat bersama kamu ketikaini tetapi masih menyayangi kamu sepenuh hatinya, fikirkanlah.Lawaknya bila kita meletakkan standard untuk orang yg bakal kita sayangi, tetapi jauh di sudut hati, kita tahu yang orang yg kita sayangi itu terkecuali daripada standard itu. (don't be too choosy!)

Ulasan: Kita amat kritikal terutamanya kepada orang yg kita sukai atau sayangi kerana kita mahukan yang terbaik untuk diri kita. Tetapi sebenarnya kesempurnaan dan hubungan terbaik dapat dicapai dengan berusaha bersama. Ia bukanlah terletak kepada satu individu sahaja.Cinta itu membuatkan anda gembira walaupun ia sering melukakan. Cinta itu istimewa jika ia diberikan kepada orang yang bertuah.

Ulasan: Jika anda bertemu seseorang yang benar2 menghargai anda, maka diaberhak mendapat kasih anda.Menyayangi/mencintai itu umpama bermain piano. pertama, kita bermain ikutperaturannya. Kemudian, lupakan peraturannya dan main ikut hati.

Ulasan: kepercayaan terhadap pasangan adalah amat penting. Untuk mempercayai seseorang yang anda sayang/cintai, anda mestilah membuat dia mempercayai anda dahulu. Yakin terhadap diri sendiri dan pasangan anda. Jangan buat mereka ragu-ragu terhadap anda dan jangan ragu-ragu terhadap mereka.Apa kata seseorang memberitahu anda ini "Saya tidak percaya dengan courtship (mendapatkan perhatian bagi memenangi seseorang). Ia cuma membuang masa sahaja.Jika saya mencintai seseorang, maka saya akan meluahkan isi hati saya kepadanya. Tetapi, ada pula pengecualian bagi anda, jika anda mencintai saya, saya akan 'court' (sentiasa cuba memenangi) anda selamanya..."

Ulasan: Cinta itu memerlukan masa untuk disedari kehadirannya. terdapat cinta pandang pertama, tetapi ia masih memerlukan masa bagi pihak satu lagimenyedarinya. Merinduinya apabila dia tiada di sisi, mengharapkan beritadaripadanya apabila berjauhan...Adalah lebih baik untuk berani mencintai walaupun akhirnya anda kecewa daripada tidak mahu mencintai kerana takutkan risiko atau cabaran yang bakal mendatang.

Ulasan: Jangan berputus asa apabila terdapat saingan dalam percintaan. Adalah lebih baik untuk anda mencubanya terlebih dahulu; kerana jika anda berjaya, kemenangannya itu teramat manis. Tetapi, jika anda tidak mahu/berani mencubanya, anda mungkin akan kehilangan orang yang anda sayang/cintai selamanya.Anda tidak pernah kalah/kecewa dalam mencintai/menyayangi. Anda cuma kalahjika anda bertangguh.

Ulasan: Jangan takut untuk meluahkan isi hati anda kepada orang yang andasayang/cintai. Beritahu mereka dan biar mereka buat keputusan di pihakmereka. Salah satu perkara yang paling indah dalam hidup ialah memberitahukepada orang yang anda sayangi betapa penting dan istimewanya mereka dalam hidup anda. Dengan itu, anda akan rasa lebih yakin dan puas. Dan anda akanrasa bangga terhadap diri anda kerana anda telah menunaikan tanggungjawabanda terhadap perasaan hati anda.Jangan sesekali mengkhianati perasaan hati anda kerana akibatnya, hanya anda yang akan sengsara; bukan orang lain. Salah satu cabaran paling sukar dalam hidup ialah mencari orang yang tahu segala kelemahan dan kekurangan diri anda, tetapi dia masih sangup menyayangi anda dengan sepenuh hatinya.

Ulasan: Cinta itu adalah berasaskan tolak ansur dan pengorbanan. jika dia tahu kelemahan dan kekurangan anda dan masih sanggup bersama anda dan lebihmenyayangi anda, maka andalah orang yang paling bertuah! Dia layak mendapatcinta anda.Ruang kosong di antara celah-celah jari kita dicipta untuk dipenuhi oleh jari-jari orang lain.

Ulasan: Bukalah pintu hati anda, benarkan orang yang anda sayangi masuk, jangan ragui tujuan mereka kerana keikhlasan itu dapat dirasai dalam hati.Dalam percintaan, terdapat beberapa perkara yang perlu disedari. Apabila anda bercinta...... Ia bukan 'passport' untuk anda difahami; tetapi untuk anda memahami. Ia bukan 'passport' untuk anda mengambil itu dan ini; tetapi untuk anda diambil. Ia adalah untuk anda mendengar; bukan supaya anda didengar. Ia adalah untuk anda berkorban dan bertolak ansur; bukan untuk anda meminta itu dan ini. Ia bukan untuk anda berkira2 atau mengukur; tetapi untuk anda mencintai....

Josh's note: I love all the words.It speaks (those highlighted pharses) of behalf of me toward the person i like. It is one of human traits and at the end of the day we should be dare to have or else we will lose it. Life is just too short to be choosy tho. Few times ago, i used to put a standard to fine a prefect match but then the result was not really fine . In fact hardly to make a first move!! Hence the more expriences come acrros my preception then i realize that be dare to try regardless the shame u will face but then at least u wont feel regrad for nothing....appreciate it!


10 December 2007

What was my sunday all about?

the lovely story goes like this.........

For the first time I went to a gym with Chriz and her muse, Odee. Chriz used to ask me to be in a gym together ( last year) and we have just made it and was yesterday (Sunday),2007. OMG, it was so long to wait such moment to come. Sabar je. So, boys and girl, be knotted and together when we hit those work out machines ok. I felt pain all over my body above all on my lumbar. And my hip seems to be scrawny coz it was quit a long time I did not manage to hit the track mill with 10 speed within 50mins. The result was only 450 calories were burnt. Gosh, with that speed, I used to burn 550-600 calories but that was few months before and now seems that my resilience not that in it’s higher peak. So need to get some tonics which facilitate me to hit above the latest figure I have. So sad huh! As usual, once I have the result on calories scanning, then I articulate to myself- it is darn fucking hard to lessen the calories but to take it such an easier shit! Just see in your mind's eye, mee goring mamak has 250 calories!But then, I can say almost 2 years and half I have been trying not to take Maggie mee as a part of my diet plan (but if if I did, I can say that I have just had 2-3 packet within a year ).Even now am a bit vegetarian when it comes to my diet plan. Okies, the easy way to reduce the weight is- roasting yourself at a sauna and that I try to do it over and over again. Oh ya, it was funny as odee, chriz and I were wearing red. Gosh, it was just a coincidence which fallen on that day. Okies, guys at least red can trigger off our self to be more and more key up while being in the department of gaining a healthy life style and nice shapes as well.”wink”

It is mind-boggling to me even the boy who was at the gym’s counter as he showed his curiosity because of the red theme, we were all red and this is such a unique picture because the faces look bigger that it suppose to be. This is the look once you just had your sleep then straight to the gym!Me with un-fix hair!Natural beauty occay!

We come and conquer. I love its sauna.Cool and comfortable.

After 16mins in the sauna i decided to take a snap. So sweeting but we tried to focus to the lense. I was thinking how would if be when die in a burning? Just do it to those who are rapits!

Before squeezing the fat in the sauna so i have take a snap for the proof either i look much beter or vice-versa after heatimg my self.

After "roasting" myself...My lip was so dry...

Here we go, Christmas is around the conner and i love the sesson because of the decorations and the gigantic trees we can see in any malls. The sesson also reminds us bout the new year is comming soon so do us ready with a new hope and new aim as the age is moving on?Gosh, am talking like am a old man. Should i just cheer up with my life and have every single moment with a joy and jovial?Stop nagging jerk-off!

After hitting those gym machines, the we mingled around at KLCC for a while. KLCC is not my port while outing or loafing during my free time or when my wallet is gaining its weight. (wink). I have no idea why sometime I not into KLCC for the rationale of window shopping or meeting people. Oh ya, when I was at a Starbuck, I was a blur and not showed any curiosity while being there. However, without any silent intention, once I touched it, I can feel the beat of my heart but I did not split it out to Odee. Once it dropped to my tongue ..i was orgasm without any sexual intention embedded on me. OMG, how I wish I were full naked and let my self be able to feel the aura of sexual by the silent and cool craving!I am abit shy to tell you guys what made me to be so here is the pic of such devil thing….

tadddaaa...............here is the thing.It is only for christmas sesson. Be there done that !

Odde told me that he has tried this once and the feel of having it so darn luscious so I dare to taste it and it is just RM13 for a regular size. Gosh, it is truly nice and mouth-watering. Once it melted on my tongue with the crunch, cream, ice-blended and the latte itself, I feel my face becomes numb and feel that the world is mine. Out of blue, one of Christmas songs was played but the melody was so sad and blue which caused me wanna cry while heaving it. I have no idea what the hell is the name of the latte that I took. However, I name it as a heartbroken latte. I felt heartbroken when the latte (the coolness of it) flew to my chest which made me almost cried because of the delicious if it.hehe. Sounds silly huh. People use to express the happiness while they are having some deleicous and “yummy’ food. But I dare to make some differences here which for me, I feel that I am so guilty and wanna be good for all the journey of mine so god will give me lot more opportunities to experience lot more and more lip smacking food in future ..hehe. Does it sound cute huh? So people, I would like to encourage you all to have a one stop step at Starbuck and try to taste it. Do split your comments out while u have tasted it. Oh ya, today I am a bit keyed up coz I met up with someone i like and regadless if the person feels the same but I will keep it at the lower tone and try not to be too excited. hehe. Managed to talk to the person in a very short time but it was worth I guess. Till then, take care fellas…


4 December 2007

Back to school after a long break

Back to school…..

After 3 weeks I have been missing in action from UKM (hehehe) , here I come. I come to conquer and to redeem my joy of being a student. Seems that now I have my passion back to do a Phd. Now still working to create a career development instead of self development. Well, my current research area is about human capital development tho.Okies, just recap about what I have done these few days. Today (Monday) I woke up at 6am because I thought that I had an appointment with a dentist but then I was wrong as it supposed to be tomorrow which is Tuesday. Gosh, i remembered that I was so in vague impression while be in the counter and be informed that it was not today. I supposed to meet a dentist last month (1st week of November) but then due to some of their nuisance matters which upon to my stoppage visit. Not to blame them as I was informed by them but then at the split second they made a call, I was busy and hardly to soak up all those changing. Well, I will not nitpick more for that and they are too busy tho as dental services here are just like a hot cake but then thanks god it will not lead to the epidemic of the black market occurrence.

It has been a long time I didn’t not have my breakfast or lunch at Zar’s Bakery. It is one of the most happening food services at UKM due to its lighten up vibes and lavishness foods yet with evenhanded price. The second hot spot will be at the Nescafe Kiosk. Being at the Bakery remains me about my old those good times while in my undergraduate point in time however was not able to capture those moments as to busy with daily routines I guess. In fact, at that time my hand phone camera was not able to give a sharp image due to its low pixel fine-tuning. But then, those memories will not be confiscated by the times as every second we are heading to the next period of time. Oh, I just notice that it has new scrumptious meal which is ;-

I have no idea how to call it but it is so darn mouth-watering. It is just RM5. On the upper surface, it has melted cheese which is a bit crispy with some onions. The most temptation part is the inner surface which is rich with a fine cooked beef, tomato, pasta, and some other ingredients which I have no idea what are they but what I can say is, the so called- pasta may make u to drop while looking at it.

This is the more evil part to me.In my level of apprisal to the "evil" food, it has juicy meat and the inner layer is so superb to be tasted! I cant resist my seft to think twise either to take it or not (due to my diet plan and now am taking meat 3 times in a week and most of it will be vegetables). It is tempting my loyalty to my diet plan!It is so "nyaman" and 'mengenyangkan" as i took it for my "brunch and i was fulled till night". At night i took no meat for the dinner due to the "evil food".
I need to work hard to reshape this shape so it will look more muscler. Hitting the gym will not work out if the diet is not in a appropiate manner.hehehe.

As i am talking about food, so here we are. This is not from the bakry but then it is Marybrown's recipies. Nasik Ayam Marybrown si so delicious and the taste is so amazing while it comes to ur tounge. I like its soup and the sos. These make it more diffrent compared to Sugarbun, or any other nasi ayam types in any other fast food counters! Thumb up to Marybrown.

I went to a library today and it has been quite sometime I have not been there. I keen to have online journals rather that to have a book. Infact you can get it more faster and they are not that thick as a book. I just download and save it at my PC or else I will print it out at the faculty which is no cost at all. I was a bit blur when I been at the library. Lot of things have been revolutionized including the photocopy card. I intended to Xerox some journals but then when I entered my card then it was unaccepted so I referred to the counter and they told me that the new card will be released soon. OMG, how many cards we have to deal with? So I need to do in in a cash. 70 pages cost me in about RM 6.00. So pricey tho! Shame on me, coz I don’t really know about that. I felt that I was a new comer to the library. No worries, anything will get fine and I get used to it within a second.

I was so blur in few seconds but then i managed to get the pic with the so called academic sence!hehehe.

Well, I have no ideas what to nag about but then I try my best to update my blog day by day as I used to be before. Till then, thanks a lot to my silent readers if you are still reading for more. Oh ya, it is december now. So, am counting on a day which is so special to me. I like December so much not because of the Zodiak Emblem but then as it is the end of year so it makes me to recall back what i have done previously so this makes me more down to earth when it comes to make any decisions esepcially about the plans for the next year. OMG, am moving to the next age then. To those who will get marriage during this month, i am wishing all of you, happily ever after and this goes to my brother and my sister in law. To my friend, bread a.k.a teacher Siti Zuibaidah (wah macam nak panggil time perhimpunan je), i hope that you will have a healty baby and hope both of you will be fine all the way you are. I know you are counting on your due date to deliver. Congrates to you and your hubby. Hey, i miss our college times! Yeah, PPBL( school of language and linguistic) is rock as it is! Till then…..