1 April 2013

SURVIVE is a Constructively Illusion

The title may sound bewildering to you, gentle readers. Currently, i am reading a book called" The survivor club by Ben Sherwood. Reading the book makes me smile. A though that i can engrave in this entry. Apology me for such constructive state: Survive is a constructively illusion. Apology is just  an  euphemism for the taboo ideology of death and life. Occay, let's make this straight: A warm breeze of disaster ruffles the clam state of your endurance and survival repertoire. In this case, what will you do?Seek and hide?or hide your self for "unknown" length of time? Such state may invoke you a question: why do some people live and others dies? how do some bounce back from uncertain adversity while others collapse to fight back?  This will create a "never ending" analogy to you and me. Don't you agree?

A survivor may be different from you and me  especially when we are in the state of overwhelming odds. Personally, i do have some issues towards "overwhelming odds" in live. A personal state where i find i lost, incapability to bounce back, became panic and unravel when being profoundly tested by life. A big question in the head" all of these are for real or for learning to stand strong?or if i cant then i am dying. Holly crap,this will not be me. I am lucky or i can say, "just" so lucky as i never ever "literally" faced odds. Raised up in  moderation ways as when i was in my childhood. I bet, the resilient factors of me are not really constructed yet. Till i was in my early 20s where i had a thought i want to be someone different. This is so not me coz, even in school, i was a moderate student and my competitive was not even traced by any cutting-edge radars , i guess. Then i made a decision to govern my self than others did it to me. Full of strength i went out of my comfort zone and i embarked my dreams by with a clutch of hope imaginary of becoming someone that i  have just met ( this monolog was taking place, somewhere in 2005) within me. My subconscious mind and me brought him to me. I welcomed him with my to bare hands. Then with a bunch of close friend we had a small venture which was related to education: a tuition centre, to be exact. I could vividly remember that we had like few students and even we accepted adult to improve their language skills or also prepare themselves before attending their interview.  They even called us and sent us warm of appreciation as in token for coaching them once they got the job that was applied by them. A beautiful feeling, indeed which made me lost for a while. The tuition centre was not that longer to serve the needs of students and people as the partners were not really practically aware of sustaining its growth. Too much of vexing agenda to govern it caused it became " madness" among us. Money driven took control over the logical state. At the end, we gained no profit yet fully in grieve deficit.  Well, am not blaming others for this yet thanks for giving each one of us to have a try at the very early age! Thanks my ex-partners. I hope you guys are doing good at any means.

Then, we were and made our own way. So i was still hunger to be someone different then i met my college mate and we both joined "multilevel" marketing for the first time. It was totally new for me and i don't really bother about the taboo of it among people toward its concept and reliability of it to make you darn full with cash! Luxuriously urges they have while their dream are represented with the achievement they have.  Not only in term of their cash, yet their mindset was sustained with the empowerment of becoming a leader, perches, politician, or hero in their own way and even can beat the wall of doubt, easily. It can be an overnight success story! Am an atypical and analytical person and simply will not judge thing easily yet i approve that "MLM" can really help you get fast cash even in a night! Well, i joined it for 6 months. Then i quitted for a year and working. Yet, teaching was not my passion then i joined other company to become newly Real Estate (hereafter RE) agent for a week then i resigned as the concept of becoming RE is based on commission and which is still similar to MLM. So i peeked my previous group in previous MLM then i saw them all were really fine. At the very young age, they had sport cars, pretty LV, uptodate gadgets and fantastic vocations. So i made my decision without any doubt so i re-joined them. I still remembered, that time i was in my first semester for my master's degree. Then within 6 months i managed to earn some pretty cashes. The earning was 4 figure which was triple of a fresh undergraduate's salary. I still had my pay slip for that. For 4 semesters, i paid my own education bills and expenses. Life was so glamorous and worry for nothing. I had my own capability to write my own paycheck. I can bang my chest like a king kong, banging God's door to talk to him all the way from the dirt i were to the state where he can see me, vividly. How ecstasy was i?You bet. I can say:
 i am in the wall of fame! yes, And the world's going to know my name
Cause i burn with the brightest flame
And you'll be on the walls of the hall of fame
i could go the distance
i could run the mile
i could walk straight through hell with a smile

......the question is, could you?

The power of leveraging that MLM has created to you a "wall of fame feeling" and now that is the new business methodology now. Nowadays, people do MLM to get their capital once they are good then the go for other solid and sustained business which may not same with common business that ordinary people are doing. Once you have cash, you can "move a rock" that stumbled on your way. The risk is, doing MLM means you lost your true friends as they walk away from you,  worrying if you might drag them in. Well, that is nothing you can do much about it. Just keep on moving. A year of doing MLM, then faced a cul-de sec as the road is ended with a gigantic block. Leadership changed and networking was so much affected not because of  company yet because the system was rebooted. So we walked to the normal road and kept on searching for new trials. I talked to my self- self commission of oath, that i wanted still to be the best.  was badly affected from the current state. From someone who earned equally like a professor ( not the associated professor) became a beggar! Continually with my living, I was in a deep depression, crashed into the pool of "inferiority complex",incapability to restructure the own future. The nerves of champion were numbed, extremely. Lost trust, and hope. Well, about 2 years i was in the world that was so alien to me. I was alienated mentally from both family and  friends. I was invisible and submerge to the society that was so cool as in a - 10 degree of ice berg. Until one day i read a book "Rich dad poor dad" and for its gist  i contemplated my way by considering  that  odds are " i was not going to make it". I did and still keen to do freelance job rather than a permanent job cause i don't like to work under others' authority or where my capability is not fully appreciated rather than i work for  my own. So i did sale layer cakes for few hundreds of them to Peninsular, did cleaning services and then my friends and i, we tried to have do a Spa and natural therapy thingy. We launched in Miri, Bintulu, and Kuching. It seems to be slowed and we are considering it as our "learning curve" and will keep on doing it as our freelance service. Then life is still challenging and commitment is piled up. Hardly to breath in yet in shallow.

Too much stories to be shared yet i can say, until now, am still learning, looking and looking for new ideas and opportunity to be grabbed. I still believe, crazy people create crazy result. I lost all before and i am not worry as i learnt how to have it before so why not in future? That makes me still believe in dreaming big! People who don't dare to dream big may not a faulty to other as people do have own issue when it comes to believe and dream. People, education is a bonus for you to get a seat in the high "extraordinary" profile people than high profile people.  Knowledge without application is nothing. There are lot of high profile people yet less extraordinary people. Live your dreams to the fullest as it costs you nothing. You deserve to be better. The story that i shared with you is not meant for me to have a blue eye as i had the history and future is something we cant hold  just that we can be the best in the life.  Remember. survive is just a word which brings a  SURVIVE is a Constructively Illusion. There is no Resilient Gene YET YOUR FOOD AND VITAMINS CAN OR MAYBE can boost your ability to bounce back from hardship.  In my own estimatology, ,it is you can really stimulate and invoke your subconscious mind to bounce back. The subconscious mind moulds warriors and survivors. The subconscious mind is really and super true, indeed! At the end, i still believe in leveraging income and no doubt on it.

You can be the clock
You can move a mountain
You can break rocks
You can be a master
Don't wait for luck
Dedicate yourself and you can find yourself

You could go the distance
You could run the mile
You could walk straight through hell with a smile

You could be the hero
You could get the gold
Breaking all the records that thought never could be broke

Do it for your people
Do it for your pride
Never gonna know if you never even try

Do it for your counrty
Do it for you name
Cause there's gonna be a day

Be a champion,

Be students
Be teachers
Be politicians
Be preachers

Be believers
Be leaders
Be astronauts
Be champions
Be true seekers

Happy Monday people and let's dreaming!

Writen and adapted by
xoxoxo Josh

3 January 2013

Hark! We are still kicking and what a “boo” to Mayan’s figment of the imagination.

Good day dear gentle readers. I’m so glad that  the myth of “ we are going the end of the world” doest really sound lunatic, at least for this time being after few of  lineages  of humanity are being haunted by such myth.

Talking about  2013. Well, it shows me some positive tonics that keep on circling around me. It is a good sign and I must say that this is leaded by those last minute miraculous cum unremitting results for being work hard and smart.  One of them, I have a trip to Bangkok, somewhere on  February 2013. Not to mention that I rewarded my self with S3 after being hard work to strive for a target. I told my self that I will go for it if I can archive that particular target coz previously I will get a  thing for granted which is at the end of the day I felt nothing. Also, I managed to extend my circle of friends and for again day by day I can be able to get closer to the closed friends that I have. Thanks guys for your trust. To those who have doubt on me, and making themselves away from the state that I’m standing on, well, I can’t further argue on  such state of affair as I’m nobody neither to hold nor to beg. To dodge in other life or not too, it is everyone choice seems to be nobody business. Yet I always welcome people as I always tell myself that, I love darks , of course, coz it shows me the stars.

Well, every day is a gift for me. Now I am so thankful to lot of people who share their experience with me about life, handling emotion and think wisely by being able to channel the anger and strong aura to an appropriate route.  For instance, when am too dull and kinda wishy-washy  then I will go for sport and make a run which bring me to several meters. Those fat asses get burn! Mind you. When am in the state of loathsome or rampaging for nothing- which is the worse ever, I go and meet clients which at the end I enjoy for being so energetic to get a deal which is worth, at least some reasons. Well, good things you can apply so at the end of the day it may fit you well, yet the so called “plain advice” you can just walk away and leave some comments for me to improve, at least.Deal?

Guys, how was your Christmas? Mine? i will post some pictures which I let those pictures play their role faultlessly. Mine was a blast as I celebrated it with my family compare d to last year- I was missed my flight back from KL to Kuching. Not to mention that I managed to catch up with few friends and we shared those days from evening to early midnight and the perfect phrase to portray this is- going out till you drop in nowhere! Overall, this Christmas does remind me of not to neglect my service as the servant of god and the more we keep on closer to him, the more we can get the scent and whiff  of saints. The feeling is kinda beauty as diamond, ruby, emeralds and lot more which bring delight to your inner side together with the music of Aeolian harps. It is also like something that there is a vortex that makes you being whirled and the sudden arrest of your motion, seems that you  will be able restore such beautiful feeling and state I try to describe. It is epic, isn’t it? With the  velocity of time, we are sometime careless to those how are in the need while we are enjoying our “ folklore” of life.

                                                          See, how beatiful the life is!

My beering chicks

                              My cake!!! it is so wonderfull and full of love. Thanks and credit to my family! xoxoxox

Till then,

Have a blast 2013! Dare to explore the blank of each page of 2013 and enchant your life to meet the disenuendo of life’s tune.

29 November 2012

Happy Faces are around so why should you be sad?

Good day people,

It is a wonderful day and i am so grateful to what i have, and again, i do have another opturnity to share all of my sensible and irresistible  joy that i have had. A wise man says  "Joys … like angel visits, short and bright —John Norris

So, in order to you feel the joy regardless you are ups and downs, we are always what we are. Be grateful to what we have. Leap and bounce helps us to grow across time and space and embracing ourself to the real meaning of what joy is. So for that, just get your self calm down and  try to comprehend this exultation act:-

Life is short 

Break the rules 
forgive quickly 
love truly 
laugh constantly 
And never stop smiling 
no matter how strange life is 
Life is not always the party we expected to be 
but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful.

  (Hi, I'm Mr. SYNERGY who is fighting and conquering.He is our icon during the wealth planner training- can you spot my name?)

So, this is our picture of this month. It is the month of jubilation as we are welcoming the Xmas! Come, let's be gay and rejoicing the session. It is a season for all to be happy and marry and just leave you worry as you have nothing leave.If you might forget how to start to open your heart to let go and get in what you may want in life, you just need to have a glimpse to this Mr. Synergy then close your eyes closely and you will automatically will get your self relax and there you go, the power of appreciation of what you have in life will get in thru you and it will balance your ego and id, your confident and inferiority in what ever means of life you may walk with. Mr. Synergy is a person who will always "sustains: the positive being of you, upholds your driven to the maximum level  persistently  and also incurs the ability of your driven to be merged with all elements of life to the fullest.

Talking about worry, one more thing i learnt from the session is, worry is always lives with you no matter how far you go yet it is only can be controlled by the power of mind. I'm talking about the visible power which has a great impact of changing

When you lack of "SYNERGY" you will not find yourself back to the reality as what you ever wished.


 Just be what you are, no denying of what you capable of and open your self to the universe. You will find the light of hopes, joys and self believing.Spread the thought that you to actions and this will eventually wipes you worries. Law of attraction is a magnetic of power to attract those positiveness which are swirling around you and vice versa. Just believe it and apply it to every stage of your life either your are ups and downs.When you are in the state of sorrowful, just have you self a space then look ahead, in your heart, you shall see that in the truth you are weeping, unconsciously for what which has been your delight

It is just that, you yourself who is the Commander of your light searching. A guide for you is simple,just that keep this thought - as each day comes to us refreshed and anew, so does your gratitude renew itself daily? The breaking of the sun over the horizon is a sign of becoming so grateful of a heart dawning upon a blessed world, even that in the midst of sailing-vessel your believing in the sea of the cold world, you will always get back to your self if you have a chance to be Yourself + love yourself more + apply the power of Law of Attraction.



6 August 2012

A Narration : The Words for he himself

There was a man who was overtly so eager and devoured  to the smell of belligerent  and  to live for the sake of legacy to stand a chance for becoming a world legend, at least for his own country. Dulce Et Decorum Est! Dulce Et Decorum Est! An arrogant whirl of voice is slowly shacking a mind of a child. He had to bend double, walking like an old beggars under the sack of hunger, pride and everlasting peace. Sludge face he was, bitter tears just for “no mercy “ to their on back. No mercy on him. Tired and sleepless soul, they marched all over the others’ dreams. Hang on, it is an universal dream. The boy had lost his boot while marching over the other’s dream. Bare foot and "naked" face are just plain to him. He was thinking only his mother and the unborn child he had with his newly bride.  The dreaming of those imagers seems to be a candy that made him joy and ecstasy. Losing his grasp of strength and  focusing was his unfortunate fate.  The last words he may heard were“ Gas! Gas! Quick Boy, bend your knee lower, you are not die for this. At least not tonight or even today!”

He was just couldn’t resist to move forward with a blurry sight.  He was half suffocated with the GAS of the death. All were Green as in a green sea. He was no longer capable to yell for  help. Even as if he is calling his man next to him. He lost his hoots for his knight in shining armor. Over the flare of the Green Sea,  he gulped down his breath with fatigue, as if he had whiskey on his breath.  I was numb for what I have seen. I couldn’t make a single protest to what was happening in front of me. I couldn’t think straight. It was a shame for me to have all these so called incurable states.  In all of my dreams with my helpless sight, he was plunged he himself to a point that I can see him clearly guttering, choking and drowning with anger, frustration and dying. The jolt of blood came from corrupted lung, slowly kills him and his white eyes blink faster as them could. Man, dying is too much to handle. He died of  the vile of innocent tongues at the same time  he died when he was in the battle of the live. For god’s sake he was only 25!  There he was. He was just a death body that we flung to the wagon of hell. No longer mercy on him yet just a glory  in his right hand. To this, he made he himself as a token of peace and everlasting life, at least to he him self.

To all my friends and children,  War is not something that is  for one hope. Just remember that. It is for a whole world which will be carried over one generation to another. It is not just a remembrance state for every one of us and we celebrate it for with a fake hoot along with irresistible entertainment.  Post War is something that  is colored in blue. It is a day like we are standing in front of a funeral to whom was/were lost in the battle of the glory. We mourned yet we proud of their glory. Without them, we were nothing for today. Let’s share this “everlasting life and peace”. Selamat hari kemerdekaan, people. Say what me mean. Put a true  and humanity sense in each of the words or phrases we carried  while shouting the tag line. An honest weight on it, at least. Re-tell the truth of the state to the next generation so all warriors are not die in the vile of tongues as well as no old lies of  death for the truth of war chaos that  is begotten to the new generation . It should no longer "Dulce et decorum est pro patria mori"

A tribute to one of my favorite poems- Dulce Et Decorum Est, by Wilfred Owen.


Written By: Josh

2 August 2012

There is a day when..it is always a day..

 The is a day when someone like “ anyone who wishes to be someone”  really falls in love with what people do in some circumstances. Just take an example, for sure, there is always a day when you might think that you are wrong yet you are definitely right, ironically, at the first place. Who is the lucky person for this imagery?

There is a day, when you are having a tone of candy that it is so vinegary. The taste might be bizarre, yet that is the veracity. No matter how hard it is, there are no short cuts for you to steer clear of it. Face it and walk on it. Who is this then?

There is a day, when a boy is becoming a poet of his life.  He recites his entire story telling about his life journey with different tune of music and beats. The reciting is for he himself! Mind you. Each reciting projects different beats which represents the each journey of life in different peaks and time space. His poems of life may portray Life and death, Romeo and Juliet or Adam and Eve. Just read between the lines then you will know the mood of his story telling. So, who this person will be? At least to you

There is a day, when a man is not taking any road to his life. He seems to be blurry and can’t think straight and picture what he wants to be, what he wishes to be. I bet that it is so dry for him. That’s feeling might not in his menu of life yet does he have any other options? To be exact, a good option? And who this person will be?

There is a day when there where we keen to be provoked to engage with an argument of life and we can resist to avoid it. In fact we are so struggling to stand a chance to win the argument. For marketing, sale and in organization, winning an argument rewards you nothing! It will end up with abhorrence and dissatisfaction at all. Most probably this is something to be treated as “ yewww”. Who this will be?

There is a day, when someone who is playing his fingers and softly articulating his mind thru the connection of the  self conscious  and the “haywire state”  to  bring into being some words that sound simple and lighten up your mind. A very light reading . Who is this? It is me!

As you can see, i spent my weekend to go to a remote area with  a friend of mine, Anna.
We went to Majau area which is under Kapit District, in Sarawak.It is my first time to experience this and it is so darn adventurous journey! Am looking forward  for this and more to come, in future, i hope.

 If you are from X generation, in the era of 80s, then this will be so famous  to you. A snack which can be found around at any shops. All the way down to Majau, i stumbled my self to a mini shop near to a river. Looking at this snack, it makes me drooling. It may not that catchy yet the taste is so Epic! I may sound cliche to you hence, i admit that the taste bud of it really bent me down, bebe! Back to a memory lane of me, it was being sold as 10 cent yet now, after 25 years later it is 20 cent per pack. That is the power of money leveraging, fellas.

Till then,

Have a nice day fellas.

12 June 2012

There is nothing has a FullStop, so does life

 Today,am feel so great for being i my self.Today, this entry will engrave something related to rural scenery. Agreed  to follow me till the end?
Am kinda addicted to  a green and natural-like space. So, this recent festival of Sarawak- Gawai Festival, i had so much joy and jovial. Yes it is a tradition or cultural symbolic to all  indigenous people in Sarawak( also known as Borneo) even thought they are christian. In fact, in Sarawak, Gawai is much more happening compared to Christmas, especially in rural or sub-urban area. However, in many urban areas, Christmas means a whole world feeling.

This year, Gawai Festival is so colourful for me. All relatives are united together and during the first day till the third day of Gawai , all of us are equipped with  so much great activities and it is fun. So i have spent my a whole week to celebrate this Gawai. I really had my quality of time with my family and relatives. 

So all the way to my village i managed to take few snaps of my selected scenery.

Me, at the upstream

Welcome to my Village

This is one of the main courses during Gawai, it can be chicken or pork or lamb. Roasted traditionally with no extra flavour. So authentic!The sauce make it feels like heaven.

Our Fresh Yard with good smell of Vege.

Each life has its own drop of journey?

Ok, my place is quite a remote area. Where the main commercial networking will be using a river so a quest for us to come over to this place is to get in into a boat and sail it all the way to the upstream from the town. It takes 40 minutes. Gosh, dare to feel and experience it? Sailing or have you yourself in a boat may not be or feel the same as you are in the rapid upstream and challenging environment. As am growing, now am more to nature and heritage lover. It is not just for the sake of being  at home yet to feel and grasp all sense of travelling and heading over to the top of  rapid stream.
Every year, we will be at our village only during Gawai celebration and spend a week or two then life back to normal as everyone will back to their normal routine and life.

For me, Gawai celebration is not merely a religion yet it is a cultural custom which is embedded in evey Dayak ( ingenious people) who has diffident walk of life. Previously, before the emerging of Christianity in Sarawak, every Dayak will practice some sort of traditional activities for the sake of appreciation to the mother of nature for the blessing of becoming good, healthy and wealthy. Most of  them are a farmer or peasant  so their life are very connected to their surrounding. They believe to the dream as a bridge for them to communicate with the mother nature. What a life. It may sound as telepathy isn't it?
Well, as am walking over the each of those moments i keep my self stay jovial. Wine and dine was so fantastic. Those traditional delicacies as well as fantastic red meats  are served nicely and perfectly with those great wines and liquor. A great moment, indeed. Traditional wine made by Dayak is called as Tuak- made with with sugar as well as gluttonous (a.k.a Dayak Wine) traditionally prepared with love and tender.

There are so much fun to be revealed here purposely for Gawai. For more detail, you can google it then.

 One question before leaving:Why am i so freaky mad about going back to home? Coz am hardcore addicted to Kampua Mee- you can only get this in Sarawak or Borneo only.Check this out!

So, till then iwill get back to you guys with some other exciting posts.Carving more for other posts, mate!



18 March 2012

the power of visualization

You may have nothing.....

yet, you have something that others may don't have....

do you ever know that, 

a day mean a lot to most of us?

a day with a praise of the Lord for giving us a chance to be a better  person than yesterday?

if you feel that you are ugly by visualization, then 

look to your name coz it reflects personality,

don't treat world causes life seems to be unfair to you,

coz, there is or are people who judge you by what do you do that what do you reflect in the "beauty mirror"

Again, head up and the sky has no limit for you to "fly".....

how does this Sushi look to you?

could  it be ugly if you are about to eat it,

Yet i can be the  most cuties - art of craft, can ever be in this whole universe, as if you are judging it by "what it has been perceived by creators (sushi maker)

It is totally cute, isn't it?

See, the power of Visualization may conquer your logic state as well as emotion's cubicle.
Here, i'm leaving you guys, with some quotation from Men Health Magazine- a healthy way to have a good diet and plan your metabolism state!

How to Lose the Last 10
No matter what exercise you choose, there's only so much fat you can burn during, say, a 30-minute workout. And research shows that the better trained you become, the more your body's "exercise efficiency" improves—meaning the same amount of activity burns fewer calories as time goes by. For instance, University of California at Berkeley scientists determined that to avoid age-related weight gain, avid runners need to boost their weekly mileage by 1.7 miles every year.
So to lose the last 10 pounds, you have to think beyond how much fat you burn during your workout. Instead, focus on the amount you burn during the other 23 hours and 30 minutes of your day—while you're sitting at your desk, lounging in front of the television, and lying in bed sleeping. And to achieve this benefit, you need to hit the weights and do interval sprints. By knowing the right combination of sets, repetitions, rest periods, and exercises and the best method of cardio, you can create a workout that not only burns as many calories as a 4-mile jog, but, unlike that jog, also unleashes a flood of fat-burning hormones that stoke your metabolism for hours after you exercise. The result: Your body's fat-burning furnace runs on high all day long, even when you're sitting on the couch. Here's how to build the perfect metabolism-boosting workout plan, step-by-step.

Read more at Men's Health: 
Thanks to Men Health Magazine, for detail do pay it a visit then.

Cheers and XoXo
~  Si Murai  yang  murai tidak ramas buku sebab segan ilmu~
~Gunakan hak berfikir sebelum guna  hak bersuara~
~kalau teperlajar sila guna hak miranda~

*translation of the above and do read it between the lines*
~a magpie as it be and remains illiteracy with its myth than facts
~understand the right of thinking before you may say a word
~ you may think that you are "literal" hence don't ever try to lose the rule of logic which may maintain the sensibility of yours~

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