an entry

what life is all about?

nothing much can be explained to what have been happened lately.

full of anger, disappointed and betrayed yet rejoicing all opportunities which are given to us. Yeah, another way to be more mature and more responsible to yourself. A great learning process tho, indeed.

These few days my friends and i were busy like a bee to distribute flayers from one coprate places to another and also from one domestic place to another. Being chased by dogs and stared by others would be our so called bread and butter. Aint cost anything for those tasks tho.Life is a game so play with it. Life is a love so enjoy it and life is a struggle so complete it!

talking about this coming GALA DINNER AND DANCE, would be a priority among girls around me. Gosh, they are excited and exhilarating by themselves. That would be a proof to show that their female hormone conquers the world. No offence tho. An array of thought at the midst of night.

What i have done last week? I was in UKM for personal reasons for 2 days. Gosh, i miss my time coz pembuat kek was with me tho. Wink-wink. I managed to have my self satey kajang and nasi briani gam with pembuat kek. Thanks a lot for such great things dear. Will be looking forward again for such treats. Will you?

talking about dinner, am in the state of confusing- what should i wear and to liaise my personal desire and budget. Am so inundated!! I am wanted to have an average tone to be wore and yet it sounds fabulous. Not that too high or low, yes it is just right in the midst. Here am searching few things to be wore:1. an average look with" tuxedo with a simple scarf. 2. a tuxedo with a bow tie.3. a blazer with a shining and striking thin tie yet a plain white T. 4.a slim leaning suit for weeding.


Okies, since that am still distorting my self with huge of choices, so let me show you in what state am i.
However, i wish to have these outfit "fabs thingy"

well, all the choices are enlivening and heady. So,i will blog again then. c ya fella.

xoxoxox

always remember you...

to our late gradma...




you are always in our heart...


sorry for not next to you when you in the state of pain and suffer....




xoxox, take care k

crossing a bridge...

Crossing a bridge?
Would it be a subjective resemblance to social tenets- “an option” for you to get your “desirably destination” of life?
Talking about life opts, would be so nerve-racking to those “school leavers”. Even when you are in the age of 100, you might be considered as a school leaver? Or even you might not be graduated on that age. Gosh, this sounds so thorny. Okies, I’ll simplify this state of affair to you then. The picture is like this :School does not portray “literally a school” but it would be a imagery of social education domains- culture, social living skills, survivable skills, and the production of physical and mental quality via maturity process. Such domains is called as a maturity school.
After you reading the book- Cashflow quadrant by Robert T.K, they you will know and understand yourself- in what flow are you? E/S/B/I? what do these abbreviation all about? Squeeze your effort and get the book. Read it and you can get along to this entry. Trust me coz this would be a bit “not touching the ground” if you fail to grab those metaphors which will be used for the whole entry. This is a very serious entry of life which I want to share with you but you simply write it in a very abstract and absurd way. So the get the meaning of it needs you to really get your mind outside form the glass box( a modern connotation) A glimpse of this book would help you to comprehend in what flow are you. The flow is about how to get yourself to get a perfect combination of survivable learning skills that you got from maturity process of learning PLUS with your great efforts. Reading the book, and trying to implement it makes me able to understand what is my truly opt and how should I be able to tune my self so I fit myself in with the opt I have made. To fit yourself to what you are looking for is just a way to go. Yes, A WAY TO GO. You really need a bare way buy not even a BAY to get thru. Yet the way you really want to take it aint that easy to get. Searching, trying and doing “try and error” would be the finest elucidation to have a clue of “a short cut “ to get to your desire destination of your own life. Perhaps, there would be NO EASY SHORT CUT tho.
Yes people, you need a SMART BRIDGE. But do you dare to cross the bridge? This is a very big so called “big bang” question to your head. Unless you are a death fish then you won’t take it hard when It bents to your head. Walking alone the life roads would give you certain bridges that you would or rather leave it away coz you fear and really freaking anxious of walking on it coz of the height of the bridge. The higher is much better. No to say that, the lower of the bridge will be the worse for you but it is just an opt tho. The higher will be risky yet will promise you with a super duper security and satisfactions for the rest of your life. The indulgence of life or the binge of satisfactions is there people. Satisfaction would have a wide meaning to people but for those who are below the age of 30, I guess we may have the same desire and inspiration just that we cant tackle those desire into a proper channel. Just that the fear, less competitive driven and plain mindset yet overwhelming dreams will never be together in most of people and this would result the state of “partition” basically from the opt of bridges that they choose. So the question, would you be dare to choose and not only by choosing it but would u dare to have your bare feet to cross the bridge of your own in order to get your own destination of life? The bridge is a SMART SHORTCUT which is not that easy to be gotten. Get your self stretch and out from your cocoon and then tell me what do you have in order to be to the bridge you really want to. Remember, believing is a power of life regardless you are in the department of love, career, and maturity process.

Xoxox, Josh

friendship remains for the last

Dear friends,

when you are sad, when your are low...when you are lost, when you are hurt, it is ok, to turn my way when you really need a friend.
a friend helps you to carry on, when you are afraid when i say you sill can count on me when friendship is tick and thin....


promise to me that dear friends, we will still and always be a friend till death takes ur apart.

i was in tough days, thanks friends( you know who you are as you keep on concerning and making me feel safe and cozy...i beg my self to say "trillion of thanks" to you my dear "concern friends"...


p/s : teach me to be a good friend when i was out of tune, wake me up when i was not next to you as you really need me..take my hand and we walk together coz i wouldn't lead if i far away from you..just nice to walk together and still remain....

Josh, xoxoxoxox

am great

Hai peeps...

It’s 3am in the morning..and am still sober.
It would be due to my state of soberness coz i forced my self to over workout today. Just imagine that, i did micro vibration massage for an hour-and every single second my cell will be vibrated for 7k plus i did my zumba with my mates. What a wonderful day i have had, indeed. Does it sound worth?subjective reaction will come up to the surface.occay, let's divert this random writing into something which looks like a journal of my life- sound a bit more realistic to current update of mine and a bit punch of salt of urban monk, perhaps.

These few weeks, i was too exhausted. You might assume that am just a jerk- knows to complain yet others might have ample of free times to cackle and gulp of air? Please don’t get me off beam, this is not a complain just that it is a random expression from me. Well, if we be able to communicate with our stress and anger, it would be a productive catalyser for us to spur our creativity and productivity.

What makes me so busy like a bee lately? Well, our sales are fluctuating because of scores of reason- celebration, holiday and mega sale. So we need to engender a great effort within ourself and drive to the max. Frankly speaking, marketing and customer services are not that straightforward to be dealt with. Somtimes, serving those who have uncivilized attitude will make yourself become more antagonism within yourself. It sounds hard isn’t it? Off course. The most terrifying thing is you might drag yourself to in the equivalent level of attitude with them. Man, it is suck. Is they anything or clue i can use to get rid of such awkward attitude? It would be so melancholy to be so. Well, i take all such things as a process of learning in order to be more civilized and sensitive. Sometimes, people threat us like a shit and leave us with full of demanding reactions which sometimes sound so fucking outlandish to me. However, i still thanks to those clients who are very joint and responsive to the services they have form us. Thanks a lot people. Because of you kindness, we are still here to give the best to all of you. Back to then agenda of” why i was so busy”. So due to the extraneous causes and effects of dropping the sale, so we have to work very hard...and really hard. The fact that, the efforts we made today will be paid for the next 2-3 months to go. Wow, i make you clear right. So better do it now.
Occay, btw, i had mentioned t you before that we have organized our ONE EXPLORE RACE in Kuching. We had 6 groups of people and each of the group had at least minimum 3 people and maximum was 5 people. Tasks were so demanding where all of participants had to explore 5 checkpoints and each of the checkpoint required the participants to complete 4 tasks. Besides that, in order to reach each of those checkpoints, each group should be able to figure out all those clues so that they wouldn’t loss them self in middle of nowhere. Each of the group mustn’t bring their Handphone, wallet, and cash, except for their IC and Driving licence. Sounds hard isn’t it? I controled and handled the 4th checkpoint. My quests were:1. blind trail, creating a bracelet using previous will from the 3rd checkpoint,playing with flour and showing off their talent- sing in an opera style, dangdut,ballad and rock performance.Dare to join?


Out of blue, i miss my student’s life. I miss to study and my nocturnal too. What a life. In the midst of thought, i miss someone sincerely. Wondering if that particular person does miss me too. By the way, i miss my books, my schedule and lecture........PhD, here i come to your embrace.

After an arduous week, now, life begins like typical, and my routine starts at 11am until 10pm. Yes, it is normal. As a freelancer yet entrepreneur, that is a normal to us. Almost a year, i can get used to it now. I gain knowledge of a lot, scratch a lot, hurt& spoil so many times, blotch countless yet stretchy my self unlimited times for a journey i choose to do. Well, such rudimentary engender outcomes which would be pricey tho.

Oh ya, it nears to the end of year, and i need to get my self a suit for Gala Dinner and Dance on December, 2010. It is an international dinner and i have to get everything from hair to toe in a well and great arrangement and coordination by hook and crook. Why i am so fussy with such thing? i will be on the light tho. Well,will give u a long write up regarding such dinner. I give my word occay. So here, i hem in some pictures that i have during my frenzied days and night.




before the game begun..so here is the pose




they have the talent- to sing in an opera style...eat ur heart out fellas..
















The 2nd runner up winner.. congrats guys.



a booth of Human Energize Station during Unimas Convocation






a mobile tester




yes, another mobile picture comes to you




kapit mobile station- doing their other part of "blessing in disguise port luck"


During the ECONOMIC TRANSFORMATION PROGRAM in Kuching


so, people, i will engrave again then.thanks for dropping by..
xoxoxo, Josh

a random writing with - a day after and another " a day after"-s

it's lovely Monday morning.
I love Monday because it means new day starts and the life goes on and one.Life is a process of keep on moving forward and I do belief that, yes you can buy a watch but u cant buy time. Life goes smoothly yet tough lately. As we are heading to the end of year, time is ticking and waits no more. Many things have passed these few weeks. Okies, at the 1st week of September, my team and I went to have a family day and it was superb tho. Thanks for those who helped and gave supports at that time. Fun will not come if teamwork and support are not collided. Then, the day after, we were busy with a new and fresh seminar regarding economic issue. Yes, we attended the seminar – Economic Transformation Program which was held at Four Points by Sheraton Hotel. It was a “medium” to get public’s feedback on the economic issues. During the talk, I attended several workshop- business services, health care, agriculture, wholesale and tourism. For sure, I can enhance my perspective and be more articulate regarding such fields in future and am looking forward to learn more and get more gist catalyze n so called my capitalism cognitive. Then, a day after, we had meeting to set up an event which is called as “One Explore Race Game” which will be held on this 17th September 2010. This event would be great tho and we have organized such event last year and we received overwhelming responses from public. Again, a tiring day mingled around me again as the day after we discussed the “explore race”, we need to get ready our boot which will be set up in UNIMAS during its convocation from 8th september until 11th september . And again, another day after, as we were busy with “operational and setting few things up” we need to put our hands on to the latest event which is bowling event in UNIMAS bowling center. Tasks are so demanding and time is consuming. Apart of keeping on making and handling event, yet the emotional state is not that working smoothly and those days passed by and I felt I my self in a long run to complete and end this “hectic” dilemma.
Those ups and downs wont drag yet it will grown-up me to be more open minded and always alert to any kind of “mindset” creepy-crawly thingy. Long distance relationship does mark a very deep scar inside me. I wish right now I can have an airplane and go to the star and wont be back to the dirt. Off from “ emotional curfew” for a while. This is the best wish I can make. Well, the solutions? Go ahead, face it and get the solutions..think positive more and say “less” to its rivals. Every times I faced such uneasy days, I’ll get a pen and jot down what is the problem and on the opposite of it I’ll set few solution for it. Then, I can easily go to bed and start my new day ahead. It really works tho. Just u should have a gut to write down what afraid you the most and compile it with its solution. Okies then, enough for such crap thingy. So, need to get my self a space a bit then continue to go down to the battlefield. Okies, peoples, where should I get an airplane so i can go to another day after?heheheheh

okies..let's sing together, shall we?


xoxoxo Josh

human is a merely machine

Customer: Well, I'm not very technical, but I think I'm ready to install it now. What do I do first?

Tech Support: The first step is to open your HEART. Have you located your HEART, madam?

Customer: Yes, I have, but there are several other programs running right now. Is it okay to install while they are running?

Tech Support: What programs are running, madam?

Customer: Let's see... I have PAST-HURT.EXE, LOW-ESTEEM.EXE, GRUDGE.EXE, and RESENTMENT.COM running now.

Tech Support: No problem. LOVE will gradually erase PAST-HURT.EXE from your current operating system. It may remain in your permanent memory, but it will no longer disrupt other programs. LOVE will eventually overwrite LOW-ESTEEM.EXE with a module of its own called HIGH-ESTEEM.EXE. However, you have to completely turn off GRUDGE.EXE and RESENTMENT.COM. Those programs prevent LOVE from being properly installed. Can you turn those off, madam?

Customer: I don't know how to turn them off. Can you tell me how?

Tech Support: My pleasure. Go to your Start menu and invoke FORGIVENESS.EXE. Do this as many times as necessary until it's erased the programs you don't want.

Customer: Okay, now LOVE has started installing itself automatically. Is that normal?

Tech Support: Yes. You should receive a message that says it will reinstall for the life of your HEART. Do you see that message?

Customer: Yes, I do. Is it completely installed?

Tech Support: Yes, but remember that you have only the base program. You need to begin connecting to other HEARTs in order to get the upgrades.

Customer: Oops. I have an error message already. What should I do?

Tech Support: What does the message say?

Customer: It says "ERROR 412-PROGRAM NOT RUN ON INTERNAL COMPONENTS." What does that mean?

Tech Support: Don't worry, madam, that's a common problem. It means that the LOVE program is set up to run on external HEARTs but has not yet been run on your HEART. It is one of those complicated programming things, but in non-technical terms it means you have to "LOVE" your own machine before it can "LOVE" others.

Customer: So what should I do?

Tech Support: Can you pull down the directory called "SELF-ACCEPTANCE"?

Customer: Yes, I have it.

Tech Support: Excellent. You're getting good at this. Now, click on the following files and then copy them to the "MYHEART" directory: FORGIVE-SELF.DOC, REALIZE-WORTH.TXT, and ACKNOWLEDGE-LIMITATIONS.DOC. The system will overwrite any conflicting files and begin patching any faulty programming. Also, you need to delete SELF-CRITIC.EXE from all directories, and then empty your recycle bin afterwards to make sure it is completely gone and never comes back.

Customer: Got it. Hey! My HEART is filling up with new files. SMILE.MPG is playing on my monitor right now and it shows that PEACE.EXE, and CONTENTMENT.COM are copying themselves all over my HEART. Is this normal?

Tech Support: Sometimes. For others it takes a while, but eventually everything gets downloaded at the proper time. So, LOVE is installed and running. You should be able to handle it from here. Ah, one more thing.

Customer: Yes?

Tech Support: LOVE is freeware. Be sure to give it and its various modules to everybody you meet. They will in turn share it with other people and they will return some similarly cool modules back to you.

Customer: I will! Thanks for your help!






p/s: go and watch the story- "p/s i love you"

xoxoxox, Josh