The Pieces Don't Fit Anymore (undiscovered)-James Morrison

I've been twisting and turning in a space that's too small
I've been drawing the line and watching it fall
You've been closing me in, closing the space in my heart
Watching us fading and watching it all fall apart
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
'Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
Well you pulled me under so I had to give in
Such a beautiful mess that's breaking my skin
Well I hide all the bruises, I hide all the damage that's done
But I show how I'm feeling until all the feeling has gone

Mmmm
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
'Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
Well it's time to surrender
It's too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

Mmmm
Oh don't misunderstand how I feel
'Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
But still I don't know why
No I don't know why
I don't know why
Why I can't explain why it's not enough
I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
But it's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit here anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore

xoxoxoxoxo

James Morrison - Pieces Don't Fit Anymore

The Pieces don’t fix anymore

Out of blue I would like to have the above headline as the topic of today. I was driven by the song I am hearing now. James Marion is the man of today blog. He He. “The Pieces don’t fix anymore” is a nice song but it can be a bit poignant to be heard. Just that am feel so blue due to the words he has here. I mean the song tho. Really sounds placid and so art indeed. Too much of listening this kind of song is going to killing my sense of spreading love and even making love which is based on the true foundation of feeling rather that covetousness of me. By considering the covetousness as the priority of me (it is just a case of study huh) then can it means that the dark side might be too dominant within me as it may radiate in my veins, huh? I sms “the pieces don’t fix anymore” to someone just now. Nah by telling you this, hope that am not getting any conjectures of gaining contemptible attention. Well, people, just listen to the song then u will or perhaps, may be able to grasp the sense am talking about. Hope that you all come with a great mental picture of the song and its wordings, at precise as what has been represented by Jamse. Well, I got it with me tho!

xoxoxox Josh

My freaking out sunday

As planned with Jlo aka ok (hereafter), both of us went out and gathered at somewhere nearby KLCC to meet up with our new biasness partner “in crime”. Guess what, even if, the meeting was intended to have a real business purpose but then it became a small congregation with one of our school mates, in fact, she was our form mates but hope she will be one of our biz partner relly2 soon as what have been planned..muhahahahha..

My best "Idok" and me. I have known her for more that 10 years!My ex-primary mates, ex- formates and ex-collueage.( to many exs with her huh?)

I have no idea what is the name of this food. It costed us rm 9.90 per bowl.But the taste is not that really fucking superb!

I guess that day was “eating” time coz we fiiled our stomach until it cant bear with load of foods. It start at one of “high” class café- Thanks for Idok coz she treated me and my turn will knock your contentment at some other days, then after we settled down all those things and planned a new mission, then we as the crow flies went to KLCC. However, in the midst of gulping down the forlorn of not watching a movie, I threw a bare suggestion to have a Karaoke time. So Idok and Lysa agreed to follow my idea. So,I won the voice here .ahaha. Thanks for both of them coz so understanding at that moment. Clap3 to them. I guess it was quite long for me not to force my self without stinting to have a far-fetched laughing. The day was like to be fulled with lot of jokes and ideas to be laughed at. Not to mention, when the “sperano” thing came to the surface. In fact, I cant really accept that KLCC was mistaken to be “Pavilion’ by us. OMG, I cant really believe that such thing will be bumped to our focus. I guess the “exhilaration” to get as soon as possible to New KTV (Karaoke Center) driven us imprudent and so fanatical. We needed to chase the time tho as the day was getting dark. It was around 6pm I guess. We had great times during that evening. For the first thing to be done, I opened the curtain by singing a jingoistic song. I sang Sarawak’s song. I managed not to forget the lyric tho! Clap3 for me. Then, followed by the Counter-tenor of mine Hahahaha, don’t believe that I can do it just that I love to make Idok fooled around. But I guess I really can make it. I do? Give me one more try Ok idok?

I love the vibes that we had over there. I sang one of my favorite songs- Kau ilham ku by Mambai ans it is such a rhythmical song, indeed.

Ok, i cna handle it form here, and the way i sang songs was pretty straigtforwad.

Idok n Lysa- nanyi lagu sedih giler babeng..huhuhu..sayuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

I can play this song with a guitar tho! Easy to be played I guess. We managed to had some pic snapping. This can be an authentication that we have been here. Again, I asked idok and Lysa if we can have a dinner at KFC for free.I do appreciate these girls coz, they did agree with me. Senang nak jaga le mereka ne kalo bawak berjalan2. Tak rugi gua cakap sama lu. Next station was Kotaraya. After million seconds of thinking and we coma to a decision to go to one of KFC’s Branch which is at Kotaraya. Heading to Kotaraya by using public transport is so challenging I guess especially when the dark comes to take part and it will be a widespread thing as that night (Saturday) to all. It was weekend, baby. Hahaha. Thanks to our friend a.k.a a manager in that fast food restaurant coz we had plenty of food to be tasted with a gluttonous craving. I love KFC Meltz. It is so flavorsome and lip-smacking to me. In fact, the Varity bucket did not attract even my single attention tho rather than I was licking my finger because of the appetizing of the Meltz. It tastes as Murtabak.

I love this meal..the meltz.........................looks simple but the taste is so superb to me tho.

Get ur tongue be there and and tell me your own appraisal about the food ok? I was having diarrhea for the next day and I totally assume that this could be due to Idok who has not washed her hand before having her meal. Just imagine that she was there with a bare hand and form the whole day and till that night she exposed to lot of epidemics in the region of her. Scary huh. In fact, after a few hours of the dinner she claimed that she had to be at toiltet frequently and it was diarrhea!! She touched my meal that why I was infected too..Arhhhh..shit huh.. Well, overall, that day wahs so splendid and am looking forward to have it more and more. Cant wait to have a small reunion among my school mates as suggested before. People will come to that get-together thing in a very different compared to their age, sttus and occupation . It was not in secondary school anymore tho.OMG, the time moves so fast even not only me who claim this state of affair. But then this is the journey of life which is to be mapped out as a collection of experiences .They come in may ways and poles apart representative to us by regarding the time and surrounding and the way we react to such these things. Well, I am totally dry today and writing this blog with a bare mind without sufficient of material and morphemes of word to be contextualized here. I am carving for more for the next reading to you, dear my silent readers. Agian, thanks for Idok and accidently toLysa for the companionship.Till then, have a nice day ya.

xoxoxox Josh

Ruang Rindu

I love this song. So romantic and the vibes really work with the voice and the sence. While writing a post 'New year 2008' the tune plays my heart and i feel i miss lot of people. This is the second time i have posted this video clip. Listening to this i miss my Family, close frends, my late grandma, and someone i adore, really i am even sometime i sound silly to express this missing thing.

xoxoxoxo Josh

Welcome on board 2008...

Happy new year people…


A bit late for me to acknowledge the year of 2008 in my blog. Well, I was late to do so for 2 days. Ok, no harm for that. It is just because I need time to keep my self in a cool depiction. Nah, I am still a live and well. Thank god coz I do have another opportunity to see the sun again as in years before. It is 2008, and now am 25 year old and 3 days after the date of commitment (every 31 December). Again, even not all dreams are fully achieved but then I still happy with what I am. Just a short recap what I have done throughout 07;-

1. I lost my grandma on August
2. Being solo again and it caused me tears (unbelievable as I admitted it)
3. My Master thesis is still in progressing
4. I have resigned from my previous job and now am doing something new (which is not in teaching line anymore)
5. Carrying out my desires to stand still for the career am trying to do and build with the aim of having the same level as other human beings in term of health, financial, emotional (Ed, sorry for these quotations and thanks for these ideas), happiness than sadness and joy.


The above lists sound not that bad huh. I mean I am not that worse just that my thesis is not completed on time as I need another one more semester to do. Gosh, it causes me cash! People talk about their new resolution when a new year comes to the surface. Well, not to say that by doing so causes u to be called as ‘blue eyes” but that can help you to be more levelheaded to your surrounding, above all, the mistake you have in past and how are you going to tackle the mistakes order to lessen the sense of guilty and burden you may feel due to the mistake? Human is imperfect tho. Talking about this, I know a run of the mill dude and he is darn fucking haughty and supercilious. He says he wants to give critic but hardly to accept other judgments toward him. He says he is a perfectionist and he indubitably can alive if he is given a compass and a map in the misty of nowhere. Sounds so blue eyes doesn’t he? Then I said one thing to him “ to be a perfectionist is to know and do something more great and logical that others which that portray your perfectionism. By accepting other ideas and combine it with your “so called and fucking great ideas’ makes you much more better than the 1st day you have been critiqued. Just don’t be so arrogant coz if u are too good people will not praise you for that rather than actively stab on ur back. The last word I gave to him is ‘how good u are and this makes u to proud of ur seft but then u are still working as a blue-collar then go to a mirror and analyze your self if you are really maximize the sense of ur brainy to the fullest.

During the New year Eve, i had these kind of junk foods as my meal. Sounds sad huh. Gosh, tetiba rasa bersalah terhadap diri sendiri sebab kena ambik ni as my dinner. Hitting to the trackmill le for the next day..These are one of Shakey's restorant products. I like the burger as the meat is juicy and mouth-watering to me yet the chicken is so unhealthy prepared (coz the colestrol layers are not that fried good enough. It was not that crispy!So evil to my diet plan)!

Ok, cut that crap. This year I want to do something which may be a bit different from last previous years

1.I want to have a sport car, at least for my this year birthday present.

2.I want to have great holidays with my parents abroad, perhaps during winter.

3.I hope I do still have strenght to do a PhD this coming June.

4.Lover Chaser , have a sporting ones ( and i try my best to be sporting) and I really want to commit ..ahahah.

5.I want to upgrade my knowledge by reading more and more books so I don’t feel that am so dumb when interact with people coz my current job need me to expend my communication discourse( hey, doesn’t mean that beforehand I dont like to read. Well, my reading menu covers wide spectrums namely it Education, development, Art, Technology, Economic, Tourism, Food, landscape, Crime and Politic, healthy and medicine, history, globalization but I am not interested to read whatever thing related to Investment or currency :D)

6.Work hard and smart.

7.More healthy, merry, joy and have a pleasant heart (be the flow to the people rather than follow the flow but if u have to follow his or her flow then do it with a smart strategy)
Be bounded with my lost, old and new friends regardless age, sex, status and race (read up for my Capricorn traits then they may give u a clue about what kind of person I am) .

8. Keep more fit and fit with a good diet plan( even now am a bit "occay" with half of Veg menu).

9. Living in a cool n peace place os i can spread more love than before..hehe..




Ok, that all for today.~missing someone ~ but then I try to keep this at a lower tone.

Till then, take care all…my love and peace will belong to u all

xoxoxoxoxo Josh

wont promise anything.....

OMG..i don’t want to be heartless…please don’t
Out of blue I feel that am heartless and am so scare and worries about this. I’m not intended to be so and be harm to my self. This birthday celebration will be the weird thing I guess and it is so much put me in lot of questions about why this world is so cool to those who are looking or a pureness among other humans? My feeling is being hurted and I do feel disappointed .. The blue feelin seems to knock my purity toward lover thing. I don’t want to be a phoenix (if u have wathced X-Men, then u know what i mean here, ;D). I do upset with some friends here, not to mention involving those close friends... Well, what the fuck coz I don’t live with their money. Be what I am.. regardless if it causes me to be inhuman well, so sorry for that. Will be cool again I guess once be able to love my self then I will try to spred the love to all over the world. To all friends who wished me a birthday and New year wish, I appreciate that and those who are not, well, not my fucking business and in fact not to blame me if i cant remember it coz the date has no siginificant at all compared to mine.hahahaha... “evil sigh”

the phoniex of Me

My december

My 31….

Hi fellas, here we are. Meeting here again with my new updates conversely it may sound dim and dry. Well, frst of all, I would like to say, Happy birthday to my self, and yes, every 31st December, the price of my physical n mind will be increased and that is the rule of universe. Big number bring big responsibilities on your shoulder. Up to you to put them in a balance either on ur right or left shoulder based on your own expedient. Right or left? Well, if u put ‘em on your right then you will do it right away and vice versa. All of these are done based on your life menu, fellas. Thanks for those who wished me and I do be glad about the wishes friends and really I am. Well it would sound exquisite if the wish comes directly from those who u love and adore. Ok. Too much of hoping will kill u then but when you are in this stage of searching and accepting then you are putting ur heart at a risk either u will be fine all the way or u r getting heartless due to obnoxious and unpleasant journey that u have encountered with. Too much craps here so I guess I go to the some “down to earth issues”.

I have no ideas, today I keen to be reserve and restful even during my Birthday. I declined to celebrate New year at Robert’s house, I declined going out to KL to meet Odde and Christy, no mood to do this and to do that. Gosh, today I was a bit offensive. Thanks for Daus (btw, happy besday to u my neighbour as he was born on 30 dec 82! he is one of my Dec mate a.k.a neigbhour) coz tries to cheer me up and ur efforts to do so are granted. For what reason? Well, someone mirrored me in a pessimistic and off-putting way! That is the reason. Do I look such fucking whore?

This is my today horoscopes:-


If you start off this day feeling a bit depressed, try to get outside as soon as you can for a brief stroll. No matter what the weather is like, a big dose of fresh air will get you back on track. A blue mood is nothing to worry about -- it could just be your mind telling you to slow down a bit and ponder some new emotions that your heart is feeling. Taking a short walk will give you the time you need to reset your brain and start feeling like yourself again.

~nah i guess it is just a coincidence to me as i am not that rule out this kind of thing.


Today, I spent my time to watch movies, I bought a cake for myself and with a bottle of Marinda Strawberry but i wont take some snaps for them.

Well, the last day I celebrated new year in KL was end of 2002. That was the last day I throw my excitement to give an affectionate welcome to the 2003. New year? What does it mean to you? Well, for me it is a year to re-think again what you have done and how do u spend your life time nicely? I read a book about gender it tells us that after 30 year old, men will take many times to re-think and regret the things they have not done in past rather than think what should they do in future or at least at this time of speaking as the age is moving forward. This could be due to metapause but for women it will be called as menopause. In the stage of metapause or midlife crisis, the noteworthy personal changeover men in their forties experiences can have both negative and positive consequences- depression, suicide, and alcohol problems often become manifest at this time. The books tell us that families are at higher risk for divorce. On the positive side, a man’s heightened sense of self during midlife can be useful for reintegration of the masculine and feminine traits which our culture mandates as being separate for most of a man’s life. Ok, if you get dizzy coz of this fact let picture it like this, in this stage where we can see men become more nurturant and women more independent as a women can standing apart from her husband and this may relieve the husband from his burden of responsibilities he feels he has carried for the family. Hence the wife who grows in assertiveness and independent provides the best sources of support to her husband at this stage. This is a fact. Wont describe this more. Not in the mood of sharing the ideas and fact now coz I still feel the offensiveness that I have here.


By the way, I guess I have to stop here but it is just for a while fellas. To all my silent readers, I wish you all have a nice day ahead people and happy new year. New year comes but will it brings new hopes to us? As usual, I wish you all, all the best to seek your needs and all of them are out there. The truth is out there ( quoted from X-Files).. and am listening the song 'best in me' by Blue...nice wording as we are in the line to look the past which enable us to create the more strong foundation to create the future..
Cheers……

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo Josh.